It's been almost 38 weeks! 38 weeks of anticipation, excitement, fear, preparation, learning and now waiting.... lots of waiting. When will he arrive? Are we prepared? Can we do this? I want to meet him! I hope it's today! 

I've been blessed. Out of the dozens (if not hundreds) of stories I've heard first hand or read through print my pregnancy has been a breeze. No major symptoms, no health scares, no mood swings, no cravings. It's been a smooth and steady progression. I'm even sleeping at night (which I hear is a rarity at this point!). Some people have said I look more 6 months pregnant than 9, but boy, do I feel 9 months pregnant! More mentally at this point than anything else. The baby showers are complete, the nursery is finished, the diapers and wipes are in position, the car seat is firmly secured, the hospital bag has been in the car since last week when my OBGYNO said I could deliver that night or in 3 weeks, because our little man was in position and everything was progressing as it should. 

The irony, is how much I"m anticipating labor and delivery. I mean, what kind of craziness is that? Obviously I'm not anticipating the pain, or the laboring, but the outcome. I realize how traumatic and life changing an event of birth is to every women who has ever experienced it because I've watched and listened to women, friends, relatives and complete strangers share with me, at a drop of a hat, their birthing stories. Usually in great, intense, detail, like it were yesterday.  And I would think it was yesterday, if it weren't for one lovely lady concluding "My baby is 34 this year. Hard to believe how time flies!". And it hits me. This is a monumental life moment. Greater than any other before or after it. For it far exceeds graduation, your wedding, landing a dream job,  taking a world trip or literally anything else that can happen to a person in life. Those things, no matter how great, will not make a women packing your groceries and checking you out (who you've never met before) burst into spontaneous story telling and intimate details of her birth story. From how many cm she was dilated when she arrived at the hospital to the very conversations she had with hospital staff and beyond. This is a moment engraved, forever, upon the heart and mind of every mother. And I'm about to enter the club. 

I couldn't help but see the striking similarity between these moments to the moments God must cherish every time a person surrenders and gives their life to him, accepting salvation. I imagine each of our salvation stories are etched on God's heart and mind in such vivid color He could, and will (one day when we get to Heaven) recite each one, as though it were happening in that very moment, regardless of the time lapsed. I realized that Just like Jesus we mothers, nearing that day, anticipate it with great joy and excitement...knowing it will be painful, exhausting, long and the most difficult thing we've ever done. But we can't wait! Because of the outcome and the final result of our pain and laboring. I imagine that is how God feels for every heart and for every lost soul. Knowing the hurt it will cause Him, the pain we have all cost Him, but he progresses with great hope and anticipation. Because the joy exceeds any pain, loss or suffering He will go through with each of us. Those things fade in comparison to the elation of one lost soul accepting Jesus. One lost sheep finding The Shepherd. And suddenly the pain is worth every moment of the final victory.  Jesus knew this at the very first bite of the forbidden fruit. The pregnancy of this world had begun, and would continue for a very long time, but the outcome was secure. The decision was made to continue with the pregnancy and not abort it. Because no matter how high the cost, how great the pain, how hard the struggle, how close the call,  Jesus, the Son of God, knew the outcome would be worth every single moment. The commitment to see it through was made. How loving a God do we have? Who would suffer for us as a human race, watching us tear apart His reputation, destroy His judgments, turn against Him, deny Him and wreak havoc upon His creation. But still He waits, anticipating, with great joy, for every single individual, for that moment of one heart accepting Him as the Savior of the world. 

God is good. God is love. And I'm so thankful He labored for me (and you) so that we could be sure of our salvation and eternity with Him. Because to Him,  you and I are worth it. 

So when the twinkling lights turn on, the baked treats and goodies make their way to the trays and Christmas carols meet you on every corner. I hope this Christmas season you are filled with joy unimaginable.  Because we celebrate the Baby that changed the world. The baby that was born to die, so that you and I could live. 

Sincerely,

Naomi Striemer
www.naomistriemermusic.com 

The beauty of living is that we never know what each day will bring. Whether it be good, bad, exciting or sad, we make our plans, but we never truly know how those plans, and our life, will unfold. 

Such was the case on Friday, Nov 13th 2015.

Yes, it was 'Friday the 13th, which has a bad reputation to begin with, but no one was expecting the horror that would unfold on the streets of our beloved Paris, the city of lights and love.  Quickly the internet swarmed with a buzzy catch phrase and hashtag #PrayforParis which Christians, non-Christian and Atheists alike were posting at rapid speed. I couldn't help but think if people were stopping, for even a moment, to actually pray for Paris. Many people posting the hashtag would claim to not even believe in God if asked moments before the news broke. But I couldn't help but consider that in times of crisis, it was our very own psyche that draws us to the knowledge, understanding and belief that a Mighty God truly DOES exist. And perhaps it is just when folks are comfortable in their lives that they are allowed to consider the 'greatness' of mankind, the ever changing 'truth' of Science (don't get me wrong, I love many elements of Science) and the strength of their own ability that they can boldly proclaim "There is no God". But when brought between life and death... God is the one thing everyone clings to and prayer is the first thing on everyone's lips. 

It was a quick and rapid descension from peace and love talk to fear and terror whispers in the following days. Until the Politicians in a claw fight for Media attention began to make bold statements and declarations about refugees, borders and protecting 'our people' that opened up what we were all thinking. 

To be completely honest, I was a person who quickly stated 'It's a Trojan Horse!' when the refugees began pouring into Europe seeking asylum months ago. It just seemed like such an obvious ploy for the terrorists to find their way in, like seeping water through a crack in a dam. Yes, it was a terrible situation but it just seemed like such an obvious mistake these countries were making allowing hundreds of thousands of strangers into their land and into their homes. And then, like the telling of a perfect adventure storybook, everyone's fear was confirmed when one of the terrorists in Paris was confirmed to have traveled into Europe, on a boat, with the refugees.  It was truth many people couldn't stomach, our worst fears confirmed. 

Many conversations followed, Biblical examples from the Old Testament on treatment of 'non-believers', and fear talk continued to grow as the debate raged on in Washington on what exactly could and should be done about letting the Syrian refugees into our great land - The United States of America. The truth is everyone was, and is, fearful of another 'Paris' happening down the street or worse, on your street! Everyone just wants to protect their family and loved ones above all else. 

It was easy to have these conversations, it's easy to allow fear to control the mind, to think of the 'worst case scenario' when our natural instinct is to 'protect and defend' that which we love. Honestly, it's the 'norm'. But.... as a Christian. What does God teach us, what is His advice? What does the Bible - our guidebook for life - say about this situation? 

I began digging through the obvious stories in the Old Testament where God called upon His people to destroy the non-believers, man, women, child. And it would be easy to say 'SEE!!' but I knew that contradicted what God taught in the New Testament, and if there's one thing a Bible student knows, it's that the Bible NEVER contradicts itself. It simply means the reader is not digging deep enough to get the whole truth. It was at this same time that I was studying the story, and the history, of Israel during the prophet Jeremiah. Somehow as I read of the pending doom that was to fall upon God's chosen people and how during this time, knowing they were marching toward captivity and ruin, the true Christians in the situation, the ones who still believed and honored God, had to make a choice to continue to love, obey and honor God even though this punishment was inevitable. I thought "How difficult, how impossible, would it be to know what was about to happen, and STILL choose to love God. This would take extreme humility of heart and obedience to God's will above our own". The truth is God protects, guides and directs us, but when we make poor choices, even after repentance, God does not remove the consequences of our actions. We have to live with our consequences, and God lives through it WITH us. I continued to have certain verses spotlight into my mind such as Matthew 7:1 "Do not judge, or you too will be judged." and Matthew 5:44 "Love your enemies and bless those that curse you." Romans 12:19 "Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written "Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord." and of course Matthew 25:35 "For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in..."  I began to see clearly, once again, that we human beings, God's people, God's creation, God's sons and daughters, His representatives are put on this earth for ONE SINGLE SOLITARY DUTY and that duty.... is to love. Unconditionally, without holding back, without deciding who, how and when. We don't get to choose, we don't get to decide. Our only purpose is to love! And if that love brings us into danger we are to have faith and trust in God, for He is our protector, He is our commander. 

If the Lord saw a group of terrorists walking by our home, the home of God's child, it would be our duty to go and offer them food, water and shelter. It would be God who would protect us. Because without our love, we make no difference in this world. Without God's love within us we change nothing and no one. Our light does not shine. 

God says in Isaiah 55:8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways." and He is right! Nothing He commands is what our instinct or this world around us tells us we should think or act. The Lord says 'Do the opposite of what is expected, allow me to work Miracles so that my Name is glorified". And fear has no part to play.

When I think of the Old Testament I think ahead to the end, to the time of Judgement. There is only one who is called to Judge and He is God the Father. Yes, a time will come when all will be judged on this earth and it will be too late to repent. But in judgement the hearts that have not repented would never have repented, even if given a thousand chances (which the Lord gave throughout their lifetime). Jesus has made a way, dying for ALL that ALL might be saved and the way is easy. 

When I concluded reading the history of the prophet Jeremiah, the end of his story was like a fresh dew falling upon my heart. The words of the head commander of the rebel army taking away the people into captivity read (and I paraphrase) "Your God is punishing these people for disobeying Him. But you Jeremiah, you were faithful. And because of your faithfulness... you can choose to stay in your land if you want. I won't take you as a captive to Babylon. You are free." I realized that God made a way for his faithful servant. Many were left behind and not taken captive and I believe those left were the true believers who continued to love God even though they were facing imminent doom. They were the ones who said "against every bone in my body that wants to turn against You Lord for what is about to happen to me... I won't, I cannot, stop loving you God" and the Lord delivered them. And He will do the same for you and I. 

A great relief fell upon me, any tension of fear of the unknown in what mistakes or errors might occur in Foreign Affairs vanished. I was free and at peace once again. Because no matter what happens, no matter how good or bad things get, I only have one job, one duty, one calling in this life... and that is to love. To love the ones I don't understand, to love the ones that want to hurt me, to love the ones who go against everything I believe and to love those I so badly want to hate. Because in doing so, I am allowing God to work miracles, to work change and convert the hearts of those I don't understand through His love in me. Because if we, as the body of Christ, united around the world and chose to love in this way, we would be a force stronger than any army the Nations could offer. We would be impenetrable. We would be the Israel God had hoped for. The one that stood strong, protected and blessed above all others, with no earthly King but God Himself ruling. For He is the King that rules our hearts. He is the King that protects us, He is the God who allows us each breathe that we breath. So against all odds, I choose love. Because I know I have a great God who will always defend, protect and be with me. No matter what. 

Sincerely

Naomi Striemer
www.naomistriemermusic.com